The Deepest Level

Sometimes we believe that we've got to be perfect and things have to be in order before we can have peace. That is a bold faced lie! Most of my life has been hard. I'm not talking about hard because i was bullied at school or hard because I experienced multiple traumatic events or had a breakup or even the fact that I suffered all kinds of abuse growing up. I'm talking about hard in the sense of not having Jesus in my daily walk. It was hard because I was not taught where to find peace and who to find it in. 

It took me years to finally learn who I was. The only way I learned was when I began walking with the Lord. Now, I had always knew of Him but did not have a daily walking relationship with Him. On the surface it seemed all was good. But there was turmoil underneath. Through dedication of reading His word and being obedient I finally figured out who I was. When I figured that out it was right at that moment that a wave of peace hit me. My circumstances did not change immediately but inside I was a whole new person. I finally had peace and was determined to share it. I wanted to respond differently and learn to walk in grace. Its because I had faith that God gave me peace. When He did, He took me to a deeper level of myself that I never knew existed. Of course we all hear about how He shows us grace and mercy but we don't always hear about individuals showing grace and mercy. And its because of His peace that I've been able to walk in grace and mercy no matter what circumstances lie before me. 

I've learned that we can go through much trauma, physically and mentally, in life but its in that torture that we can have still peace; if we know where to look for it. Where do you look for peace? In God's word. He gives very clear direction and support when we need it most. It is the only place that will give you the resources you need to handle any circumstance you go through and it is the only place where you'll be able to find out who you are at the deepest level.